Someday

Someday
by Ren Concha

A rainbow without rain.
A love without pain.
A true smile that radiates.
A true bliss that elates.

The world is innocent.
So better not be silent.
Release your voice.
Dance and rejoice.

Someday your wishes will be heard.
All your fears will be conquered.
Someday miracles will happen.
And hearts won't be broken.

Someday the thorns won't prick.
No one would be weak and sick.
Someday life will change like a magic.
No one will end up tragic.

Lead our hopes in that someday
Until then stay strong and pray.
Nothing is impossible.
Everything is possible.

Nagising na

Nagising Na
by Ren Concha

Ilang araw na ba ang nakalipas?
Simula ng aking talikuran ang landas
na tinatahak kong akala ko'y mabuti,
yun pala'y dulot sakin ay pighati.

Wala ng makakapagpabago pa sa nakaraan.
Ganun rin sa desisyon kong ika'y talikdan.
Nakipagkaibigan at sumama ako sa iyo,
sa aking buong akala na sasaya ako.

Hindi ko inintindi ang mga sakit noong una.
Ngunit nang nagtagal hindi ko na maiwasang lumuha.
Sinuway ko ang aking mga magulang,
upang sa iyo lamang ay huwag magkulang.

Ngunit anong iyong ginawa sa akin,
walang awang ako'y iyong inalipin.
Ngunit ngayon nagising na ako sa katotohanan,
na ika'y isang kalokohan lamang.

Badly Missing You V

Just a few moments ago,
I’ve called you.
And when you said hello,
I became a statue.

I never imagined that I really have missed you.
Never thought it was so true.
If only you knew,
how hard this pain I’ve been goin through.

Second by second that I’m hearing your voice,
made me stand up from my seat and get a tissue.
For I look like an idiot crying in rejoice,
now wiping these tears, thinking of going to you.

As if we were in a fairytale, fighting in full scale.
Making our dreams come true, making us breakthrough.
All throughout I just want you to know that this tale,
would never ever end even with a simple I love you.

-Ren

Badly Missing You IV

Badly Missing You the 4th
by Ren Concha

It ’s so refreshing to my eye,
that I can't help but cry.
Because it's 7:30 am and I can't see you,
no presence at all, no hi, no hello, no you.

I was looking for you.
I was searching for you.
But we are miles away,
that I couldn't accept this way.

Sometimes I asked myself if there's really forever,
then I remembered those times we've been together.
While reminiscing those memories, I’ve come to know the funny answer.
It is being with you is the meaning of my forever.

Badly Missing You III


Now how I wish I could see you,
for my soul is getting bluer and blue.
Without you I’m terribly terrified,
and gotta be ok if you were just by my side.

Thinking of what to do, I sit down in my chair.
I get the calendar and count the days.
I counted and counted, till then I wasn't aware,
that tears were falling so fast as if there was a race.

Soon as I noticed, I wiped these tears streaming in my face.
Then I remembered how you wiped my tears from those days.
I was so freaking hurt coz I want you again to wipe these tears,
how I hope you were here to stop these conquering fears

I was crying so hard that even my breath can’t take place…
I was so scared, so afraid, so much that I need your embrace...

-Ren

Badly Missing You II


As lay in bed,
I can’t get rid of this habit,
which is thinking of you.
And I wonder why in any circumstances,
I simply can't get rid of this feeling
which is missing you.
Even if I reach out to the moon,
the sun won't still shine for me.
I wonder if I can fix this tune,
so I can hear no stops in the cd.
In short I want no blocks,
for I’ll destroy all locks,
that keeps you in a distorted cage,
and keeps me disturbed in stage.
I want to see you,
and that's because I miss you.
And that's reason why I need you.
And it's all because I love you.

-Ren

Badly Missing You I


Badly Missing You
by Ren Concha

As I open my eyes from sleep,
I saw no you that made me weep.
Those days that we both spend together,
is long gone just fast as a feather.

Now my heart aches so badly.
As I feel so broken and lonely.
I hate it, today and tomorrow.
As I continue to feel this sorrow.

And at this very second I’m crying and it's all because I love you too much.
I am so weak and vulnerable that I want and absolutely need to feel your touch,
to the point that I’m so helpless that I can't restrain myself from missing you.
And this drives me insane that I want to spend every single day of my life with you.

I miss you!

just sharing a personal story


Malapit na ako magtapos ng highschool. Magcocollege na ako next school year. Ang bilis ng panahon. Mag-gagraduate na ako after 3 months time.

Kararaan ko lang sa napakadaming bagyo at pagsubok. Isa na ruon ang pagkuha ng UPCAT. Madali lang kung tutuusin. Kulang lang talaga sa oras. Kaya naprepressure at hindi nakakasagot ng matino. Ang ginawa ko nalang eh magshade ng kahit anong circle tas pinasa ko na.

Bukas naman, USTET kukunin ko. Wala akong napag-aralan. Kasalanan ko rin naman kung hindi ako makapasa diba? Pero hindi ko talaga kasi alam kung anu ang pag-aaralan. Wala akong ideya. Kaya hihintayin ko nalang ang bukas na dumating at magdadasal nalang ako sa Diyos na sana makapasa ako. 

At hayy naku, isa pa tong mga magulang. Iniisip ang kanilang kahihiyan kapag hindi ako nakapasa. Kasalanan ko parin ba yon? Kung yun ang kaya ko, bakit hindi nila tanggapin. Nag-eexpect na naman sila. At eto naman ako nababagabag sa mangyayari. Ayoko sila ma-disappoint pero higit sa lahat ayaw ko namang ma-disappoint sarili ko. First section ako, hindi sa pagmamayabang. Pero nakarating ako dun dahil mahilig ako mag-recite at ma-vocal ako. Pagdating sa written, loser ako. Kaya kinakabahan ako. Ano na lamang gagawin ko? 

Hayy. Sana lang talaga makapasa ako dito. Dahil yung UPCAT at USTET lang kinuhanan ko ng exam. Kung hindi pa ako makapasa, san na lang ako pupulutin. Hayy, Hakuna Matata nalang.

He's gay.


I've been a maiden in-love for months.
And just a while ago have I turned to a fallen angel.
I liked him so much and I thought I had the chance.
But it's all false, he's damn gay, what a great epic fail.

Sadness lingers in my heart, disturbance is created within my soul.
I'm shattered, I never knew I was such a turtle, so slow.
He was so sweet to me that I thought I was playing the girlfriend role.
And now I know, I was such a feeler, carried away with the flow.

Now at house, I stomp over things, screaming "He's gay! He's gay!"
I don't know what to do, I can't understand why and how,
He's so damn masculine and attractive that he would always make my day,
but now it's no more, it's over, and again it ended, another failed vow.

-Ren

With a Player


Player
by Ren Concha

I hate liars, users, posers, betrayers,
but  I mostly hate damn players.
They play with you and all,
makin you fall for nothing at all.

You got to test that person first,
before his real intentions burst.
when at last the time comes I have proven it
I realized I was just stupid as it is and so damn it

Out of this throbbing ache knowing I was completely treated as a fool,
I furiously came out of my silent shell with burning rage losing my cool.
Yet I am an educated woman, so I painstakingly freed that boy from prison,
and so in the end even though I know he deserves it, to God I left the decision.

I guess it's too much to expect to have a serious relationship.
It's like holding on to a slippery pole to survive in a sinking ship.
I hope the next time I fall in love even if it's merely an infatuation,
I won't experience any agony nor pain for a change in situation.

Moi Description

Moi Description
by Ren Concha

I regard my hobbies as my very own passion.
That's why people told me I have a weird obsession.
But I don't care, I'm happy and it's because of various reasons.
They are my true friends, their presence shines in all seasons.

I play drums and never get tired of it each session.
I love cute stuffs, anime, manga, in short I am an otaku in action.
I dream of being a president, I am afraid of no cautions.
I am a creature of grandeur, I won't be someone of foolish treasons.

Before I was such a little bitchy girl with fair complexion.
Now I am a big matured girl who changed because of devotion.
Looking back in the past of my life which I colored with crayons,
It transformed with rainbow colors and is now full of stars of zillions.

With those little things in life I set my eyes with admiration,
I never thought of those as my secret obligation.
This passion was made out of my pure and untainted dedication.
And thus set my humble declaration.

It was my lone intention not to be someone of the world's pollution.
That's why I have made no violation of rules, no need for negotation.
I am the one and only product of the universal collision.
I seek of the one and only truth of reality's illusion.

Shy Man's Toughness



Wherever you are, no matter what happens, I'll still find you and get you back into my arms again~

You are different from the other girls I've met,
In my whole life, you were the first to touch my soul.
Things have gotten good, bad, better and worst,
Yet you never showed weakness neither pain nor hesitance.

I am enlightened, to think that someone like you still exists.
In this world, I couldn't find anyone better and best than you.
You are my red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo, and violet.
You completed the colors missing in my lone white and black world.

It may seem cheesy, but I wonder how can I say this to you.
I never did confess in my whole life, and later, I am about to.
I am afraid you reject me, I am afraid you don't even like me.
That's why I'll wait no matter how long, for this infatuation to bloom into love.

So, sorry if I was harsh in any way, but I need to be tough.
Cause a man like me is shyly, madly and truly in love with a woman like you.
So, even if I crash the places you are hiding from,
And steal you from your silent and frightened shell,
Don't be afraid, I won't make you cry, I won't harm you, I won't bite, because I respect you.
I love you <3 p="">

by Ren Concha

Build A New World


Build a New World
by Ren Concha

Too much hardships and difficulties may cause us pain.
But it is never the reason to stop searching for what it meant.
We must keep on standing, fighting, again and again.
Because time is precious, we must cherish each moment.

Everyone knows how painful is it to start anew.
But to succeed, to feel happiness, let's rebuild a new future.
Let's not waste our time being blue.
Hope and faith will keep us moving for sure.

Each coming day is a new beginning.
Believe, don't stop believing, it comes with magic.
Fly and flee upon the sky, go on soaring.
Let's go on with the flow and follow the beat of the music.

RollerCoaster~



Treat today like it's a ride on your favorite rollercoaster. It's thrilling! It's exciting! It's kind of scary! The closer you get to the top, the scarier it is! You may or may not be aware of the sounds of seagulls, cotton candy vendors and the ocean. You may or may not feel your stomach about to hit the top of your mouth. You may or may not scream. One thing is for sure though: Once you've climbed to the top, there is nothing you can do to stop the ride. Whee!


Sa lahat ng Friendships sa Mundo~


You're the Apple Of My Eye,
Mango Of My Pie,
Palaman of my Tinapay,
Keso of my monay,
Teeth of my suklay,
Finger of my kamay,
Tagasunog of my kilay.
Blood in my atay,
Bubbles of my laway,
Sala of my bahay,
Seeds of my palay,
Clothes in my ukay-ukay,
Calcium in my kalansay,
Calamansi of my siomai,
Vitamins in my gulay,
Tungkod when I'm pilay,
Feeling when I'm high,
Shoulders when I cry,
Cure to my aray!
In short, you're my friend habambuhay! XD


LOVELOTS, you ALL~!

Acknowledge Life


Acknowledge Life
by Ren Concha

Life goes down, life goes up
There's no such thing as crap
We need to accept things as they are
Unless we do want a bloody war

We got so many choices to believe in
but we got such tiny faith to use from within
We walk many paths, we cross many bridges
But some gave up and wasted many chances

Let's get our spirits high cause we must stand up and fight.
Let's gather all the courage and go on through many lengths.
Cause life doesn't end that simply, we must collaborate and unite.
There's so much more in this world left to see with our own strengths.

Walk like a princess, gallantly but don't trip, it's a shame.
Flee through the sky, escape but don't evade, it's a knowledge.
Run as if you've just been freed from a cage, don't think it's lame.
Pause and stop, as if all freezes, then search for the message.

Treat me like a woman

I look like a girl with matching long hair and stuffs. Just no make-up.
But either way, no one particularly cares. After all, I'm just a big fat loser.

I act like a boy, and people got used too it.
I got pretty used to it too. But things are going too far.

Boys think as if that it's okay to hurt me (physically) cause I'm strong, cause I'm not like those usual girls.
And damn it hurts me. When they actually punched their hungry fists to my shoulders, it actually hurts.
I don't feel the pain physically but I was emotionally dumbfounded.
I just felt like I want to cry but I thought it was ridiculous.

Ughh. For once in my lifetime, I want to be treated as a girl, as a woman, I want to feel it. And it sucks since it's impossible with me now.

~~

Treat Me Like A Woman
by Ren Concha

Treat me as a woman, like a girl you've always known.
Treat me as a girl, who have been wanting to wear a gown.
Don't look up upon my strength, cause I'm truly weak.
So why don't you try to know me first before you speak.

Treat me as a woman, like a usual girl who has mixed emotions.
Treat me as a girl, who wants to be protected from cautions.
Don't just punch me and think it's okay; Be more mindful.
And most of all choose your words to say; Be more careful.

Life is a little short, make me feel loved.
Life is pretty unfair, but don't be unreasonable, don't ever run.
Life is a little scary, make me feel secured.
Life is pretty chaotic, but don't forget, I'm still a woman.

If I can Just Withdraw my Farewell


If I Can Just Withdraw My Farewell
by Ren Concha

I wish I had never said farewell.
It made me sad since you never did tell,
what you really feel, what you really want
All this time, I wish you'd be blunt

I am sad, goodbyes do hurt too much
Now I know, now I fall, who's to catch?
Poor me, left alone with sullen wishes
Pity me, slowly dying to ashes.

Sitting near the fire I continue to think
Whether it is right to go off and sink
I wonder if I just need to let go, stand and move on
Or if I can't do it, so just sit back, relax, and wait on...

Recognition

Recognition
by Ren Concha

Failure from a test,
deprived from nature's best,
left with discrimination among the rest.

Loads of potential within me
No one has ever appreciate nor see.

Acknowledgment, I need more.
Love and Care, I long for.
Waiting for someone to open my door.

Whatever nonphysical things I do want,
Yes it comes to me, but scant.

It is painstakingly hard to continue leading this harsh way.
Every step leaves a scar that won't stop hurting even a day.
Agony and anguish, grief and sorrow, only the eyes do portray.

Whenever happy or unhappy, it doesn't matter, people don't care
In this huge world, I don't belong, I don't have a share.

Torment of a Night


Torment of a Night
by Ren Concha

Love at first sight
Enjoy at one night
Trust of the foolish woman
Disgust of the playful man

A loitering shadow
Reflection near the window
Fantasies at dark
Fire with no spark

Tormented Soul
Blackening Charcoal
Jinx and Hades
Cutters and Blades

personal: pray for me pls

I am taking UPCAT.
and USTET.

University of the Philippines.
and the University of Santo Tomas Philippines.

HOPE I CAN PASS! ^/////^
Please support and help me!

the exams here in abroad are held on October 11, 2010 at IPSJ (International Philippine School in Jeddah)

PLEASE HELP ME GOD and friends!

Clutter


Clutter
by Ren Concha

Never easy, never hard. it's just a matter of mindset.
Just like how you open a slippery or rusty faucet.
It's just a matter of a can do or can't do.
Strong resolve, strong will, courage and determination will do.

Life is just a complicated web with many holes.
In different lives, we come to play different roles.
I wonder why some can't bring themselves to accept
that we are all meant to experience the consequences of going right and left.

Let's see what we are meant to be, what we can, our potentials would be.
Let's go on, move forward, chin up, chest out, let's not flee.
Why not try to believe in ourselves and have confidence?
Be proud, stand strong, smile happily and to your old bad self say condolence.

Poetry


"Poetry makes nothing happen;
yet, men die miserably every day for lack of what is found there."

Poetry is simply a couple of words in a beautiful pattern and rhythm which implies a deeper meaning in within. Playing along the lines of the poems are different emotions, different feelings, and different thoughts. The most usual thing that you can find or see in a poem, is the wonderful meaning of life. In the quote, it says that poetry makes nothing happen. It seems true since it's just a language of the heart and mind, yet men die miserably everyday for lack of what is found there because in poetry you can see, feel, and understand the inner beauty and grace of life. Maybe you know that nothing happens; yet unconsciously, your soul is gaining something valuable, something significant, something beautiful. Usually when we read poems, we can relate, and as the poem goes on, as the rhythms flow, we can feel better inside. It can heal some pain or aches in our hearts, it makes us smile while reading it as we find it amazing, it touches not only our heart, amazes not only our mind but as well as our inner soul. It lifts up our spirits, we can find hope, faith and inspiration in between the lines. It can change some of our looks, points and views about life; it can even change something inside us. Yet still, it can't help that some may not appreciate or will find it just a waste of time. In the quotation, the phrase 'men die miserably' is just like a flower that you cared for and just withered. It's similar to that because the flower is just like our life and everyone cares about their own life. Understanding poems, going deeper in the field of poetry is like you're going into the another dimension of the world you're living in. You'll find figments of different things not found in your real world. It's like an adventure or a journey that is within the lines. It's even miserable if a man really die without even seeing or knowing the thing found beyond the verses of his life.

(some article i made around 2007 i think, found from my old stuffs, just sharin it out here.)

Radiance

Radiance
by Ren Concha

You have awaken this bright radiance from inside of me.
Just with one little kiss, you've won my heart so easily.
Isn't life too predictable and insane?
With one word "love" everything is around the lane.

In just one circle where only the two of us is inside,
A power in within shines off so brightly that we can't see the line.
It's just like a ribbon that's cut to half leaving us aside.
To conquer the very rest till the skyline.

Beneath, behind the clouds, I hope he is standing there (God).
Watching us together grow as time is passing.
With him just smiling up over there.
As he found our little story amusing.

My Queen


My Queen
by Ren Concha

You are my queen
In our castle unseen
Only the two of us is the king
In the kingdom we are dreaming

Be at ease, Our dream will come true
I know you'll love it I promise you
Harmony and peace we will experience
Love in the atmosphere at silence

Those days are soon my queen
As for now I'm your servant whom you can lean
Be carefree and rule me my mighty love
For I'm forever yours my love

Who Am I?


Who am I?
by Ren Concha

I am asked of what's my purpose.
I am questioned of my value.
I may be dead because of love.
Otherwise, it may be because of hatred.
Do you know who am I?

I am always hated,
always judged.
They say I'm cruel,
and so unfair.
Do you know who am I?

I may be in a state of darkness,
but I may be lead in light.
I may look distorted,
but my beauty will never vanish.
Do you know who am I?

Many tried to save me.
But many continuously tries to kill me.
Many keeps on destroying me,
but many still tries to change me.
Do you know am I?

I may be full of pain,
but I am also full of happiness.
If you can just find the courage,
to start over again and seek it.
Do you know who am I?


I am "Life"
if you figure out why,
here's a thought,
What do you commonly hear from people about what life is?

Sorry not Sorry


Sorry not Sorry
by Ren Concha

I don't know why but I can't feel it.
No spark, no flame, all pieces won't fit.
It's plain emptiness like in space.
It is the truth, puzzling, like in maze.

I hate that truth, for it is confusing me.
But everything isn't going smooth, it's tiring me.
So don't blame me if I walked away, closing my eyes.
I have to leave you astray and break our ties.

Yes, I'm Sorry, but I can't dig deeper, I can't do it.
I can't make up a lie and make you fall for it.
I like you, you are like my sister but that's all.
Nothing more than that, nothing at all.

Nais Magbago


Nais Magbago
by Ren Concha

Gusto kong lumigaya muli,
pero buhay ko'y puno ng pagkakamali.
Bakit ba ang hirap baguhin?
Ano ba ang dapat kong gawin?
Para maiba ang pananaw sa buhay.

Marami pa akong tinatago,
isa akong taong puno ng sikreto.
Gusto ko nang sabihin,
pero pano ko ito gagawin,
Kung wala namang nais makinig.

Boring, Korny, Nakakasawa.
Ayokong maniwala, tanga na kung tanga.
Kung alam lang nila kung ganu kasakit,
lahat ng sinabi nila aking naalala kahit nakapakit.
Ngayon, paano ko ba maiibsan ang kalungkutan..

Kahapon, ngayon, bukas, parehas lang.
Eksistensiya ko ay balewala lamang.
Para akong hangin hindi nila mapansinpansin.
Ni isa wala man lumalapit sakin.
Masakit, pero sa huli kailangan ko rin tanggapin..

Ngayon nakitingin na lamang ako sa kalangitan.
Nagdarasal na darating ang araw ng kaginhawaan.
Na bukas, maging isang taong kinakailangan.
Maging isang taong iyong maasahan..
Hindi na isang taong kay hirap mahalin..

beast


no matter how beautiful the beast is,
i shouldn't have let myself get seduced by him.
because once i've come to my senses,
i'll lost any chance i ever had of escaping.

Ika'y sa akin, ako'y sayo, ngayon at magpakailanman.

Ika'y Sa Akin, Ako'y Sayo, Ngayon at Magpakailanman
by Ren Concha

Alam kong hindi ako pinagbigyan ng tadhana.
Pero ito ako ngayon, hinding-hindi na mawawala.
Sa mata mo, sa tabi mo, sa utak mo, at sa puso mo.
Mananatili akong tapat at mapagmahal sa iyo.
Ika'y sa akin, ako'y sayo, ngayon at magpakailanman.

Korny, Cheesy, kahit ano pang sabihin mo,
Sana'y umabot ang nararamdaman ko sa iyo.
Labis na katotohanan lamang ang aking sinasambit.
Labis na pagsusuyo ang taglay ng aking awit.
Pagkatandaan mo, ika'y sa akin, ako'y sayo, ngayon at magpakailanman.

Hindi ko sasabihing iaalay ko ang langit at mga bituin sa iyo.
Dahil simula't sapul hindi ito naging at magiging akin.
Sana'y mabigyan mo pa ako ng pagkakataon na iparamdam sa iyo,
Kung gaano kita kamahal at gaano ka kahalaga sa akin.
Muli, ika'y sa akin, ako'y sayo, ngayon at magpakailanman.


Video Games


Video Games
by Ren Concha

I love games, video games, sim games to be exact
Cause it moves my heart, lures out my teary act
Best part of it is, I can always restart every time I fail.
Many lives to use, and at least I can create my own fairytale.

So I won't stop playing, even if my hands go numb.
It's my only happiness, don't care even if you call me dumb.
I'll keep my world close, than open it and let the problems load.
I'd rather keep myself in fantasy, than in reality to abode.

Call me stupid, call me addict, call me names, it doesn't matter.
I have my own way of doing things, I'm not like you who's clever.
I don't understand complicated things and am lazy enough to do so.
Thus, I'll set my game in easy mode where there is no such sorrow.

Bare Hands III


G:
That night was exceptional, especially when we joined together
All night long, we desperately, passionately searched for pleasure

B:
Ever since that very night, there hasn’t been a day I haven’t thought about you
Do you know how long I’ve waited? To be able to touch and kiss you like this again?

B:
Look just how wet you are from simple smacks and kisses
Look, just having your nipples played with, give you many ecstasies.
Look at those teary eyes of yours, it is so attractive,
Looking at me like that, I can’t really resist, it is so seductive.

B:
Now I want to make you cry, see more of your precious tears.
Let out and let me hear your most beautiful moans.
I desperately want to see that erotic sight again
Feel and taste that sweet nectar of yours once again.

G:
And now it is really becoming the same as that wonderful night
Such another great masterpiece within sight
My body is wrapped up with very sweet tingles
Just from your red-hot and spicy kisses

B:
Your eyes is clouded with so much passion
When I thrust my big stuff into you
You cried out like you were in pain.
And you sucked my cock in so tightly.

B:
Being inside you is still wonderful as ever sweetheart
That night, I thrust so deep inside you so many times
I even actually thought I’ll break you apart
But I don’t care even if it’s one of the crimes.


by Ren Concha

*NOTE: Trippings lang to. This is for fun. But I am not experienced or whatsoever. I am just OBLIGED to continue the fun from Bare Hands I. Yea, obliged, because in my school, many likes it, and they are impatiently waiting for the next part. 

Play Girl


You are too easy to predict
There's nothing left to be interesting.
It seems I am incorrect.
You don't seem to be promising.

So then I walked out from your sight
Added your name in my collection
Wandering who's next that night
For tomorrow's playful action

Yeah I'm a girl, playgirl to be exact
Just a sweet revenge for you guys
Who played and hurt us women a lot.
So then get ready for another bunch of lies.

by Ren Concha

Glimpse


I seek adventure, I seek action, but what I found is romance.
I want to run, I want to escape, but destiny left me no chance.
I'm bound to this rusty chain, now I've become a prisoner of love.
I want to go, stop, be free, soar beautifully like a dove.

But life is crazy, so insane, now slowly I become madly in love.
Without knowing, I'm giving all that I have
But gradually, your presence is drifting away from me.
I'm afraid, I'm scared, now, I don't want to be free.

Being a prisoner doesn't matter to me anymore
But why, what are you leaving for?
Suddenly you left, next I'm free... now I feel so empty.
Crap fate, the hell with destiny...

by Ren Concha

Come to me.


Remove this sweet poison within me
Come, destroy this chain binding me
Unleash the hidden power inside you
Reign then come, take me to you

Make your mind wander to the farthest of the farthest
Make your heart beat with the rate of the fastest of the fastest
Come, climb, crawl, like an almighty scorpion
Don't stop, don't give up, just come and be my greatest possession.

Now hold my hand, don't dare let me go
I'll be gone, for sure you'll be a man of sorrow
Those power, those efforts and actions you made,
Will just be a part of our little and sweet serenade.

by Ren Concha

Seven clash of thoughts.

I am wrong.
I feel remorseful.
I really regret it.

First of all,
From the bottom of my heart, I deeply regret.
From the depths of my mind, I did doubt.
And all those reasons I made, are nothing but lies.

Second.
I admit, I did feign ignorance.
I know, you had thought of vengeance.
But your love for me prevailed,
yet reaching me still failed.
How can I say sorry?
Will you still accept me?

Third.
I miss you. It's because I need you. And it is all because I love you.
That's why I was damn happy when you told me you still love me.
My mind went blank, my eyes stared into space.
Your words echoed in my mind, and so, I seriously thought about it.
But I was damn frustrated, cause my mind badly, so badly rejects you.
You know why? Because I am still trapped in the state of what you call doubt.

Fourth.
In my dictionary, it says it's still infatuation.
These feelings I have for you is transitory.
Yes it exists now, but later, surely it will be gone.
Hey, tell me, how shall I interpret this?
Am I now running back and forth inside a maze of confusion?
Because I can't find my way, the right way going to you.

Fifth.
May I know what's doubt again?
Uncertainty about the truth, actuality or existence of something?
So now going back to you, don't you have someone special already?
Going back to me, does that mean, I am wasting efforts for nothing?
Then what's this uncertainty all about? Does the truth even involves me?
Now that I think about it, no it isn't! It became a wall that I can't even break!

Sixth.
Damn, I can't understand what I'm saying anymore.
My mind is clouded with many clashing thoughts.
What shall I do? I am becoming insane.
Though this is a freestyle writing, does an ordinary human like you,
can even understand the meaning?

Seventh, lastly...
So infuriating, I can't find the right words to say.
Now, all I know is that I changed my perception.
About things, about the world, and about love.
It's hard to figure out. It is a continuous cycle of doubt and lies.
But that is what makes it interesting.
On how to make those doubts disappear, how to make those lies useful
into making one's love a profound evidence of distorted beauty.

Intoxicating.


The night is so long to go.
The day is soon to finish.
What shall I do?
I just want to vanish.

Into thin air, can you feel my breath?
I'm exhaling hard, inhaling hard...
I feel like I'm near to death
Will you save from being retard?

I just feel nothing now,
I just want to die.
I'm now taking a bow
With a peaceful sigh.

by Ren Concha

Losing Grasp


I can't conquer my weakness.
But I know God is my witness.
He knows this pain I'm going through.
He has plans for me even though I'm blue.

I lost, I am a failure and that's what I think.
But God has plans for me, and again that's what I think.
I suck, I am always negative inside,
but what i'm pretending is positive outside.

I am facing the truth, but the courage that I used
emptied all of me, I am not anymore amused.
Now I dont know what to feel.
I am just nothing, Nothing but a person from hell.

 by Ren Concha

Alumni Homecoming Speech in our English Subject.

my shot. :)) guess what? this shot is from a painting :))


Alumni Homecoming Speech
            Good afternoon to all my fellow schoolmates, batch-mates, to all the teachers, to the principal, and to the directress. Thanks for this wonderful opportunity to address you today. Batch-mates, I hope you don’t mind even if today’s auspicious occasion is our reunion and teachers, fellow schoolmates, I hope you don’t mind if in any case I’m disturbing your classes. Mrs. Belma A. Regis, on behalf of my batch mates, thanks for inviting us to our dear Alma Mater and for asking me to deliver a speech of inspiration to my fellow schoolmates. I feel privileged and happy to be standing here, representing the batch 2010-2011 and I am grateful that you could all be here this morning to listen.

           As an introduction, in case you don’t know me, my name is Ren. For starters, I would describe myself as a little wanderer in a large city, ordinary citizen in an extraordinary country, one tiny creature in the one huge universe, but look out at the future, because from a little wanderer, I'm going to be an elite lawyer, from an ordinary citizen, I'm going to be the president of the country, and from a one tiny creature, I'm going to be the one who will change the world. It's not a DREAM, it's a REALITY. I’m just waiting for the season when I’ll hatch from this egg or when I’ll break through this shell. And that’s what I thought years back when I graduated from this school. Unfortunately, I am just one of the “with honors” when I graduated from high school, therefore I didn’t have the chance to express myself back then. But fortunately, you might not believe this, but what I’m going to say is nothing but the truth. I graduated from University of the Philippines in Manila as a Summa Cum Laude with the course of Business Management/Administration. In case you don’t know what Summa Cum Laude is, it is the valedictorian or the highest rank when you graduate in college, with grades ranging from 1.00-1.20 or 97% to 100%. Are you surprised? As for me, I am surprised; I can’t believe that I am the top student of this prestigious school. And this, I owe to my dearest Alma Mater, Al Hekma International School, for lighting up the flame of my soul therefore leading me to unleash the hidden potential sealed within me.

              It is not as easy as you think, I worked to my bones, and I lived my life like hell. Therefore, it became fruitful enough. It just justifies that if there’s no pain, there’s no gain. And again, I will be studying Law Proper in Ateneo University the next school year. Wish me luck, and hopefully I’ll graduate again as a Summa Cum Laude. In case you’re wondering why, as I said in my introduction, I want to be an elite lawyer and someday the president of the country. Therefore I must take these steps and endure all of these.

              Present students of Al-Hekma, I hope you won’t forget that you will inevitably face loads of trials, hardships, obstacles, difficulties and challenges along the route of your careers, for with the honor of becoming one with your dream comes with tremendous and rattling responsibility. Remember when you achieve your goal, accomplish it with pride. Through the years, you invested your time, you polished your skills, and you have set your own goals and met each and every challenge with courage and determination to overcome those that you’ve encountered along the way. Always bear in mind that success is never measured out by fulfilling the expectations of others, but by sincerely and honestly living up to your own expectations. Moreover it is not a place at which, one can come to, but instead it is the state and spirit which one undertakes to continue his journey. In result of becoming true and honest with yourself, of becoming a man or woman of integrity, you have made through it and earned this moment with the right to be proud of your fulfillment.

             One advice from your senior, while going through every circumstances in your life, use both your head and heart, not one over the other. Be balanced and fair about everything and don’t be bias. Don’t ever judge. And if you do, don’t even think that you are just observing and can’t help it. When you observe, don’t judge, but instead understand why and accept it from the bottom of your heart. If you give the people around you your respect, trust, love, friendliness, forgiveness and loyalty, you will be surrounding with people who value these qualities and return the favor back to you. If you do everything within your own principle, dignity and conviction, your thoughts and actions will reflect it. If all your words contain truthfulness and consideration, people will welcome you into their presence. If you came from a place of steadfastness, perseverance, and faithfulness, you will surely withstand any challenge and overcome any trials and obstacles. If you bring to your work diligence, excellence, enthusiasm, confidence, obedience, reliability and modesty, your work will show it and your livelihood will prosper.

               I am hoping and expecting that you will all live your lives to the fullest, to your hearts’ content and to take the course of life that will guide and lead you to your desired destination. For your futures, I hope you won’t be discouraged and continue on pursuing your dream and make it real. I hope you won’t think that there’s any limit to your success, because even the mighty sky is not the limit. You can make it, just attempt and try hard and most importantly, pray to God.

                Remember that some may try to negatively influence you. So you must be aware of the dangers and temptations of the world. Be confident and follow your own lead. Stand up for what you believe, and listen to your own voice. Have faith and know you are never alone.

             Finally now, I’ll share you my essay. Life runs along the way, last for miles, but as for some it cuts short, and for others so short. So let's look ahead. With our wishful dreams and hopes for the future. The darkness of sorrow, the light of happiness. The swift breeze of morning, the warm atmosphere of noon. And now we've come across the path. All things we ought to know, now full of doubts. Tears fall so heavily yet no one sees. Cries, echo, ears itself can't hear. Broken hearts all around. Shatters and fall all around us. As they fall to their knees, clutching their chests and weep in pain, does no one see? Both broken life and broken dream? As we are a part of nature, the sky cries a broken song, as we cry along to its shattering melody, studded rhythm and of a once beautiful love song. And as our relationships broaden there comes our friends. Friends may come and go, some move along with their lives, leaving us behind. Yet some stay and never let go. Hands reach out as others never even try. And everyone has a family. A father that holds a young and talented daughter. A mother that holds a strong and proud little boy. The future's bequest that they do see yet you do not see. The world turns and spins. And in the middle is where we stand. In a twisting web, a tree of life.

To my fellow batch mates, classes of Neon, Nickel, and Nitrogen, “Be happier than ever, live a healthy life! Thanks to you, my life is pretty messed up before and fun right now.”

To my teachers and the new ones, “Thanks for showing me the world in front of my eyes, I hope you’ll continue to inspire more students!”

To my fellow schoolmates, one phrase to all of you, “It is your time to shine!”

(Thank you)

-created by Ren.

[P.S. i'm just a 4th year highschooler right now :))]

Playing The Game of Life


It's not whether you win or lose, its how you play the game.

Playing The Game of Life

Along with choosing your the goal of your life, you get to choose how you will play the game. The popular saying goes " the means justifies the end", and in this case ... how you play the game changes the game itself. Think about it. If you steal and cheat ... your life is going to be spent thinking about how to steal and cheat and avoid getting caught. And if you are caught, you are going invest a lot of time and emotions in handling the unpleasant consequences.

Why Choose To Develop Virtues?

Simply put, if you develop and use virtues in your day to day life ... your path becomes smoother. People will both like and respect you ... and welcome you into their lives. It will be easy to get along with people ... and spot the ones to avoid. 

It is a fact that some people just do not get it ... and they bring chaos, turmoil, drama and toxic energy and events into your life. You know the ones -- everything wrong is because of someone else. 

For a bird's eye view of the virtues and how using them can improve the way you play as well as the game of life itself ... see how they help you get along better with your fellow man and thrive on the planet. 

Shall we get started?

  • Right Concentration : If you focus your attention on peacefulness, responsibility, detachment and tolerance ... your life is going to attract people and events with these qualities into your life.
  • Right Relationship : If you offer the people around you respect, caring, trust, honor, love, friendliness, forgiveness and loyalty ... you will surround yourself with people who value these qualities and offer them to you in return.
  • Right Intention : If all your words and actions come from an attitude of service, trustworthiness, fairness, purposefulness, determination and cleanliness ... people will sense this and respond in kind.
  • Right Mindfulness : If you keep in mind ... and thus your thoughts and actions reflect ... idealism, reverence, self-discipline and gratitude -- you are going to attract people and situations where these virtues are valued, needed and rewarded.
  • Right Thinking : If your thoughts reflect your innate courage, creativity, honesty and generosity ... your speech and actions will demonstrate them to the people around you more clearly than if you shouted it from the treetops.
  • Right Speech : If all your words reflected and embodied truthfulness ... tact ... helpfulness ... understanding ... thankfulness ... and consideration ... people will notice it and welcome you into their presence.
  • Right Effort : If you come from a place of steadfastness, resourcefulness, perseverance, moderation, and faithfulness ... you can withstand any challenge and overcome any obstacle.
  • Right Action : If all your actions reflect the integrity, courtesy, kindness, gentleness, justice and mercy you believe everyone is entitled to ... you will get these same qualities in return from your fellow man as well as the universe.
  • Right Livelihood : If you bring to your work diligence, excellence, enthusiasm, confidence, obedience, reliability and modesty ... your work will show it and your livelihood will prosper.
  • Right Timing : If you embrace the qualities of humility, and balance patience with assertiveness, and orderliness with flexibility ... you will act in harmony with the events and trends around you.
  • Right View : If you view the world with joyfulness and see the inherent unity of all things ... then you will start to see a new world and heaven will appear out of thin air before you.